I’d Like to Talk About FEAR

It’s now been over a year since I published ALL IT TAKES, and it’s been that long since I’ve done a blog post, so you’re all probably wondering why I’m suddenly here.

I’d like to take a moment to talk about FEAR.

When I published ALL IT TAKES, I was petrified. I had no idea how it would do, if people would like it, or if it would sell a single copy. And while it was by no means a best-seller, I’m proud of my first book. It didn’t earn me a ton of money, but it brought in enough to give me some padding while I figured a few things out.

The first thing I figured out was that I absolutely 100% wanted to be a professional author. This was my dream. This was what I’d always wanted to do with my life.

The second thing, which I’m just realizing now, a year later, is that I’m afraid.

I’m so afraid that the next book I write won’t be good enough, somehow. I’m afraid that people won’t like it. And because of that, I’ve been stalling. I’ve been making up excuses and reasons and a million to-do lists of other things to do just so I don’t have to work on the next book.

I posted on Instagram back in March about releasing STRAYS, but since I made that post all I’ve done is sit and think and worry and just be so afraid that I haven’t had time to do any work on it. Because, in my mind at least, somehow it just wasn’t good enough. And that meant that I wasn’t good enough.

It’s strange. It’s so strange because while releasing ALL IT TAKES was a generally positive experience, not all of it was. Yeah, most people liked it, but some didn’t. In fact, the two most popular reviews of my book on Goodreads are negative ones.  On top of that, while it did sell, it didn’t sell nearly as well as I’d hoped and honestly some of the people I know in real life who’d promised to buy a copy, telling me they were proud of me… didn’t. So yeah, some of it sucked, but I’m a big girl. I can handle a little bit of disappointment. But apparently what I can’t handle is the very thought of disappointing others. I’ve been so scared that people won’t love my next book that I’ve put off releasing it, because I don’t want to let anyone down.

Seriously?

How does that make sense?

The world is a vast and beautiful place, full of different people who like different things. I’m one person. I can’t make everyone happy. So why the hell am I trying? Especially when all my efforts in doing so are costing me my dream job?

That’s what fear does. It paralyses you.

So on that note, I’ve decided to announce that I’ve grown a backbone and I’m working on releasing my next book, STRAYS. It is a YA Horror novel and will be releasing sometime this fall. This book is dear to my heart not because it’s my favorite of all I’ve written, but because it was the first book I ever completed. I’m proud of it. I hope it does well. But I’ve realized that even if it doesn’t, even if everyone hates and/or ignores it, I’ll still be okay. I’ll be okay because releasing this book means that I’ve overcome my fear, and that there will be more books to follow.


Because this is my life. This is my dream.

I’m a writer.

So I must write.

 

-Sadie

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Release Month 

Well, it’s been just over a month since I released ALL IT TAKES and I’m absolutely floored by the amount of support I’ve received.  When I first planned to do this, I’d hoped, of course, but never in my wildest dreams did I think that my little book would do so well. 

And I have all of you to thank for that. Readers, bloggers, friends. I love you all. Seriously, thank you SO MUCH.  Every kind word, every review, they’ve all warmed my heart. 

Thank you. 

You’re awesome. 

And for any bloggers out there who want to review ALL IT TAKES, be sure to drop me a line at sadiemunroe@gmail.com  

Release Day

Well this is it, everyone!  My little book is out there in the big wide world for all of you to enjoy.  And I truly hope you do!

The response that ALL IT TAKES has received has really blown me away.  You will never know just how happy I am right now, but this…this just means the world to me.

So I wanted to take a moment to thank each and every person who has read/has reviewed/wants to read my book.  THANK YOU.  Seriously, from the bottom of my heart, thank you.  You’re all glorious, and I wish I could hug each and every one of you, but I can’t.  (Also, that would be awkward and my arms would probably get tired)

But seriously, thank you!

Today is extra special to me, because you see, I started writing ALL IT TAKES on July 1st, 2014, a year ago tomorrow.  So from the first word to releasing it into the wild, it’s been an entire year, and one that was full of a roller coaster of ups and downs.  It was a hard road, getting here, but I had the best support system in the entire world, my family and friends, and they helped me pull through and bring this book to you.

So thank you.  And again, thank you.

I really hope you like it!

❤ Sadie

ALL IT TAKES Teaser

Hey Everyone!  Since we’re ramping up for the upcoming release of ALL IT TAKES (June 30th, woot!) I’m releasing a snippet from the book.  You know, just to whet your appetite 😉

So here’s the teaser: in which Star first sees Ash.

Enjoy!

Love ya,

Sadie

The diner door swings open, tinkling the little bell that’s hanging just above it, a guy walks in who looks like he fits in even less than I do.

If that’s even possible.

He’s not very tall, not for a guy, at least. He’s maybe a couple inches taller than my five-foot-six, and he’s wearing ripped, baggy jeans that seem to be holding onto his body by sheer force of will, like at any second they’re going to make a break for it and just fall right down. Over that, he’s wearing a t-shirt and the ugliest army jacket I’ve ever seen in my life, and just beneath the cuff, I can see the black ink of a tattoo as it snakes down his wrist to cover the back of his left hand.

His dirty blond hair is cut short, but not in any particular style. More than anything it just looks like he took a pair of scissors to it and started hacking, and his jaw is covered in a few days’ worth of scruff. He has a face that looks like if he’d cleaned himself up, he’d look pretty good. But he has a long way to go.

And judging by the way Lacey has tensed up in her chair as she looks over her shoulder at him, she agrees.

The guy kind of hovers in the doorway for a minute, looking around like he hasn’t seen the place in years—Did I look like that when I walked in? I wonder—then his eyes clap on the waitress behind the counter, the one who’d given me and my tattoos a dirty look earlier, and he shoves his hands into his pockets and kind of shuffles in her general direction. Lacey whips back around to face me, her pale ponytail slicing through the air so fast I’m amazed she didn’t take her own eye out. She plants the palms of her hands flat down on the table top. “Excuse me for a minute, Star. I’ll be right back,” and then she’s up and out of the seat before I can say a word. She’s completely forgotten about the tray of food she’d been in the middle of delivering to the other diners when she’d spotted me, but, as I glance around the room, worried that someone is going to call her out on it, I realize that none of the diners seem to care about that.

All their attention is on the guy, the one Lacey is making a bee-line towards. I can see her face from here, and she looks like a bloodhound who’s just caught a scent, all full of concentration and purpose. It’s a little unnerving to watch. The guy only makes it about two-thirds of the way to the counter when Lacey intercepts him with a—I hate to say it, but really freaking snotty— “Can I help you?”

Cold. Really cold. And judging by the look on the guy’s face, he feels the chill.

“I…could I maybe speak to the manager.” He pauses for a moment, and when Lacey doesn’t say anything, he adds an awkward “Please?”

“I can help you,” Lacey says, and crosses her arms over her chest.

“Okay,” he says, and blows out a breath, slowly, like he’s trying his best to ignore her reaction, which, to be honest, is unexpectedly bitchy. He reaches into the pocket of his army jacket, and pulls out a folded piece of paper. “Well, I was just wondering if you guys had any openings.” He unfolds the piece of paper and holds it out to her. It trembles a bit in his grip, and as I watch, he starts chewing on his lip. “I’m looking for a job.”

I expect Lacey to reach out and take the paper, to tell him that she’ll pass it on to the manager for him. But she doesn’t. Instead she just stands there, her arms crossed over her chest, her fingers tapping against her arm.

“Sorry,” she says, but the tone of her voice makes it clear she’s anything but. “We’re not hiring.”

The guy just kinds of stares at her. I don’t think he was expecting that either. The piece of paper—which must be his resume, I realize—sort of hangs there in the air between them, and the fact that Lacey isn’t even pretending to be interested in it speaks volumes. Hell, it screams them. After a moment, the guy’s gaze drops to the floor, and he pulls the resume back. That’s when I notice just how worn that piece of paper is. It’s half-crumpled and looks kind of soft, like it’s been folded and unfolded again and again. This is not the first time he’s been turned down, but I’m willing to bet real money that it’s one of the rudest. And most unexpected, given the way his face falls. “Oh. Okay,” he says quietly, and neatly folds the piece of paper and slides it back into his pocket. “Thanks for your time.” He doesn’t look up as he leaves, just steps around her and beelines for the door.

Just as he pushes open the door, though, one of the customers lets out a cough.

“Killer.”

Even through the fake cough, the word is loud enough that I flinch at the sound. And if I can hear him, the guy at the door can too. He freezes for a second, then, head down, shoves his way out the door.

All It Takes is on its way!

It’s official everyone!  All It Takes has a pub date. After many real-life hurdles, it’s finally on its way to publication and I couldn’t be more excited. 

The official pub date is June 30th. So at the end of the month my little book will be safe and sound in your hot little hands. 

I can’t wait. 

Stay tuned for the preorder links!

And We’re Off!

Hello Everyone,

I’m so excited to share my news with you.  The final draft of All It Takes is off with my editor, and *fingers crossed* I’ll have an estimated pubdate soon.

This has been a whirlwind for me, and everyone has been super supportive.  I really hope you all like All It Takes.  I know I loved writing it.  Star and Ash are so very dear to me.  I hope you love them as much as I do.

If anyone has any questions, or just wants to say hi, you can reach me at sadiemunroe@gmail.com or leave me a comment on this site.

Love ya!

Sadie